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Sunday, December 2, 2007
boy,do you care?
im telling the truf.i really did forgot wat ive said jus now.why isit so difficult to trust me?have i always been a bad girlfriend?no.well d slammimg of fone dint quite do a good job,its helpless.god is love this difficult?yes we may be very different but we can oweas talk.u don now how hurt i am.yes u r a boy and boys don cry over matters.dey get mad mad mad.idk y but i don tink u understand.u noe how i am last time right?and don mek me turn back and be dat girl again.ur d first one,let me make dat clear the FIRST ive been faithful to.wen im wif u i tot u were d one u were my everything but do you?ive been a good girl dis days.wen comes to u my mind wen blank.ive never love sumone like dis before.never in my life.ive always wasted my tears on u eventhough i noe dat its not worthy.trying to hold my tears back was hard.ive cried alot lately and im living in hell.i dk sumtyms i feel myself as desperate.i was partly wrong too but come on i wun tek all d blame alone.i don tink i can sleep ive been tinkin abt us lately.omg how sweet i am.for u to read dis i tink is a bless.but.for me to admit dat i love eu wen im mad at u at the same time was crazy.people might tink im stupid.but do u?and don tell me bcos of such small tings u wana get mad at me.all i wan is for u to change.i wish we were like lastime wher u and i were so close.late night talks w/o even yelling or slamming d fone.went out u n me. we sit,talk and spend time cuddling up together.i was so warm datym.u always be d first one to msg wen ur awake.i was living in heaven i mus say.well theres no guarantee in life.wat goes up mus come down.things get abit rough wen sumtin happened.i was deeply sad and i reli wanted to cry but im jus holding back cos i dun wana spoil ur mood.and its our anniversary i guess.geeee try doing dat to sum oder girls,can dey really tek it?how far will dey go?and don u even realise dat im always trying to calm u down n fix things up slowly.ohh dammit i need tips on how to hold back tears.aaaa god has answered me. tips on how to stop crying: 1.Excuse yourself to go into the bathroom or wherever. If you just can't stop yourself, then this is a last resort. 2. Think of the holidays, or birthdays or friends, if it helps, take a friend in with you, but make sure it's a funny or comforting friend (they always make you feel better). 3.Luckily, even in your deepest breaths, nobody really notices what you are doing, so they won't come to know unless you tell them. 4.Never run into the bathroom-- walk. Walk as calmly as you can. 5.Don't get yourself into any situation that might make you cry or stress you out. Keep calm. 6.Play it cool. 7.Don't let anyone suspect you are losing it. whohad the same problem as me.well u can always refer to d above-mentioned tips.enjoy reading.and sorry for straining ur eyes to read my blog.and i might come with anoder tips soon.am i crazy?ohh hell no i am not crazy ok.im jus stressed out.till den i'll update u soon.
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