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Seventeen
A Republican
Mysteriously Magical
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Sunday, December 30, 2007
oh please tell me your answer
went to work just now morning was feeling really blue. i felt tired+sleepy+pissed off+devastated+lonely. mostly was devastated. im bout to cry in d train itself. but people might see so i force myself not to. damn! so many questions have been playing in my head. and im getting weaker, no one noes exactly how i feel. for d past 2 days ive been putting a mask on my face, i was just pretending. i was right, no wonder i felt somethings wrong for d past 3 weeks. i finally had my answers. dint expect it wud turned out dis way. this is hard. this is so difficult. please see and remember wat ive done for u for d last 10 months. its really killing me, why did u do dis to me? i really dint imagine dat dis matter cud drag me to be lyk dis. i feel different now, even d msgs ive seen u was different. i dunnoe how long i might take to recover, i donnoe how am i gonna get over it.
fuckkkkkkkkk!it d 3rd day already and its becoming much worse den yest or d day i got to noe d truth. ohh my, im struggling. im really am. nothing seems to make me feel better. nothing at all. please let me be happy again. don treat me as if imma spare tyre. im really falling apart now. how do i deal with dis? i just cant accept wat uve done. i cant believe it in my own eyes. im so worn out. you dunnoe how i feel cos i nvr did dhose things before. ive been clean for so long. why must u choose to do dat? u have an innocent girlfriend at home, and ur doing dat to her. omg i felt lyk as if ive been stabbed. u might hate dis post but dis is how i can express my feelings and let it out. imma puzzle yes indeed. ever complex in every way. you take my heart away and you left it lying around jus like dat. do u mean it wen u say sorry? do u mean it wen u say u still wana be with me? why did u do dat? to me you arent serious. ur jus playing around wif my feelings. if someone really loves you,he/she wudnt do dat. cos her/his feelings towards dheir love is so strong and u wun do anitin to make him/her hurt. if i dint found out d truth, wud u still wana continue doing dat?stupid.yes indeed
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