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Seventeen
A Republican
Mysteriously Magical
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
u said u hate me,why?
everyday i cried bcos of eu. wen im wif u i tend to hold back my tears. i pretend to be strong. but wen ur not around my heart felt so weak. y mus we fite and end up hurtin each oder? wen we argue, im d one hu has to be patience and mek sure u dun put down d fone. but u seems d opposite. y mus u say u hate me?y mus u be so hearless?y mus u tek tings so easy? whers ol d promises u made,down d drain? lyk yest we argue n u said u were slpy. yea i understand but boy u kip me so worid. if i wudnt cal u, i wudnt noe ur bak. n boy u kip saying ur slpy but come on jus hold on a min. im not forcing u to tok wif me. wat breaks my heart was to hear u say dat to me. and to see d msg was heart wreckingg. it really scar a deep wound on me. and it teks forever to heal it. boy i kip staring at d msg ol night and i kip flashing back d arguements we had. i tried my best oreadi. well i guess u shud give me sum space. i guess u find me iritating, annoying, pest, fucking troublesome, shit and ur enemy. how worse can i be? gosh i aint ur girlfriend siaaa.i promise not ot call u first either msg and not to cry animore. but i jus cant help it.i cant slp rite now. how i wish u wud wan to hav e real chit chat wif me. u wud say dat u reli love me, u wud wan to spend ur life with me, ive made u fil most comfortable. u will owes by my side n u will nvr let my tears fall. n if u id, its ur place to wipe it away. n u wud cal or text me up jus to make sure im alright. u wud tel me im d best of d entire female in d world. i wish u were my wife. but *DEEP BREATH* i noe dat it wudnt hpn, not even close. im jus imagining tings dat wud far from happening.damn! or am i bete of my own? all my blog ive been posting it abt u u u. u still don geddit?i dun care wat happens to me,wat i wan is u to be happy and safe. pls don mek tings hard. ive been kipin it for quite a long time. behind those smiles and laughter i had was sorrows. it was ol jus an act to cover up my sadness. pls im not gaining ur sympathy. wat meks me break out is looking at ur comments u send me at myspace 8 mths ago and d replys i send u back was so sweet. i kip reading it over and over again, and i kinda broke out as i read it despite i promise myself not to. u said" i LOVE EU MORE THAN MY PSP !!!!! OR EVEN FRIED MARS BARS LAH SEY!!!! " rmbr?den i said"gosh!i mish u lah sial!serioushitte" aaaaaaaaargh! why cant i rewind it to dat time? looking at those cmnts and compare it now was whole lot different. ohh god i wan my old faizin back! imisshim! where is he now?
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