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Seventeen
A Republican
Mysteriously Magical
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Thursday, April 9, 2009
self-
its weird. i feel weird. I like to believe that he's the black & I'm the white, rather reality is I'm the black & his the white one. Whenever we kept firing out those words, anger starts filling in, sometimes it might takes one long hours of phonecall blurting out our angers & trying to prove either of us are wrong. Or even sometimes it just takes a seconds to just hung up. I know I've made some or rather most blank promises. You've yet gave me that second lap, over and over again. I told you that that' will be my last second lap, but it never have been the last at all. I'm such a trouble kid afterall. I told you i will listen to you but yet, it happens the opposite. oh darn it, fuck it. Despise me, i deserve it. Somehow, I told u (again) I can be better but what does yelling, not listening, the 'me' attitude got to do with becoming 'Better'? You showed me in every possible single way that you've changed & be trustful. And yes baby, you're a man. I'm still a girl still trying to figure how do I escape from the past. To think someone could tolerate such difficult person- Me, its a big deal. Cause I am difficult, I'm difficult to my love ones & I'm difficult to myself. So what does that makes me in to ?
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